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Blinking lights and a glass of red wine,

My room swallowed by the silence,

Hundreds of voices crushing on the other side of the wall,

But none of them go thru him …

Sitting in the corner of my bed , eyes shut, and a little smile ….

Empty spot in my mind, just to feel not to think,

Gentle fingers playing with my hear on the back of my neck …

Rush of lust, going up and down on my torso …

Cold breeze fighting the fire ,

Enjoy your battle…

So simple, but yet so mystique ….

Woman’s skin  ,

Woman’s soul,

Woman’s mind,

Full of colors, Full of sounds,

Natures master piece ….

Standing on the gate of entrance to this world…

Playing the symphony of life ,

Welcome and Enjoy,

You’re just passing try ….              

Sitting under a tree, smoking a cigarette ….

Looking at the smoke rising above,

Infinity of time, unlimited space …

Me, My eyes, My thoughts and My hart …

Oh glorious day, Sunshine  through the branches …

Opened up a meadow full of colors and full of sounds,

Maestro please start ,

The music of feelings, divine raindrops …

Barefoot dance,  circle in the light ,

Looking at the rainbow, smiling at the cloud ….

The rain mixed with sun, making love on day light …

Natures miracle landing on my skin…

Still barefoot dancing just feeling little rocks ….

Naked and lucid, I listen to the sound ,

Music of feelings playing in my mind.    

So the day pass by and the night came through … Fanfare and drums …

The darkness land on my body , like a smooth cape…  My nakedness hidden ….

So I fell down on my knees, on a candle light … waiting for a punishment , waiting for a prize …..

My head was bend down , my shoulders covered with my hair ,

Black as the night, long as a day ….

I heard the lash, striking in the silence, my back started to bleed  …

And the rain kept falling, washing out my blood …

But the mark was still there laying on the earth…

The blood scars from the lash … opened up and crack ….

Through my skin , rising from my blood ….

Ecstasy of pain, blood tears from my eyes,

My hart in sweet agony , Chaos in my mind ….    

Reborn with black wings … joining back the flock …

Unique and wild …. Caring  a sign ….

Marked and alone … Living a new life ….

“Dream”

Smile, while you wait for me ….

Erase that ironic look of your face ….

Clear the path to your mind ….

I’m here and I want to stay …..

Spread your arms, like a sea gal …..

Rise your eyes up in the sky ….

Listen to your heartbeat …

I’m here to lift you up ….

Open your lips breathe in the air …

Line your head back to me ….

Feel my skin …. Sense my smell …

I’m here to love and care  ….

Embrace the night, like a pillow under your head …..

Cover your body with a dark cape …..

Feel the pulse on your neck ….

I’m here to kiss you back …

“Walk”

Let’s play a game …

Take my hand, palm to palm ….

Fingers crossed yours in to mine ….

Let’s take a walk, through the woods …

You and me, without our armor, without our shells …

Pure nature, pure sense, pure emotions …..

Can you just feel, without looking at the high trees …?

Can you just walk, without looking at the earth …?

Can you just kiss me, without closing your eyes …..?

Walk with me, on my journey,

Through my path of my feelings …

Here with you ….

With eyes closed …

Lips sealed with kiss…

Hand in hand …

Heart to heart …

Your breathe is mine ….

“The Path“

Howling on a full moon ….

Deep dark forest insight … me, but not alone …

You are by my side …..

Why do you seek my eyes?

What do you want to see?

Why do you ask for words?

What do you need to hear?

Silence in the night … so full … so loud ….

Screams of a soul … Song of a heart …..

 The Feelings … Barefoot dance pure, naked and proud….

The Denial …. Standing on a stake, fire with fire …. Lust with desire …

The Acceptance …. Put me on my knees …. North wind on my spine … thirst and red wine ….

The Confession … Took my breath … Exchange of two hearts ….

Sacred Love …. Belonging ….

I’m yours and you are mine …

“The Cliff”

One step more…. Last one in a row ….

I can now reach the heights …. Not to fall ….

I spread my hands like wings … my eyes remain shut …

The fear is gone I can open them now … wide…

I can reach the sky …. I can feel the wind …

Hush my dear … listen to my heart …..

I’m alive …. Finally beginning to live ….

Still I can feel your hands …. Reaching out for me…

Holding me tight …. Like it was meant to be …..

Look at the fortune path … look how clear it was ….

There’s no sign of pain … no sign of fog ….

Sunny day … for a walk in the park and you next to me ….

So I look at the cliff again just to say good bye …

My fear is gone and I have reached the sky ….

Hold me in your arms …. When I kiss you just kiss me back ….

You finally found your home right here in my heart …. …

I have made my oath … to the earth, the sky, the stars …

I’ll be yours forever … My love …. My dear …. My life …

“Black Butterfly”

Thousand kisses traveling through the night ….

Dance of the black butterflies ….

Released from the deep … beauty unknown ….

Performance just for you before they return back home …  

Silence in the night like music so divine ….

A calm sea on the horizon kissing the sky …

There you can find my soul lying in your hands …

Making love with you … is making love with her self …

Clear, Pure and Yours …

Sliding under you fingers like a satin sheet...

Glorious sight … unspeakable speech ….

When you are here I have no body, I have no mind ….

Just another story to write …

 In every other black night in silence

Same scene and same performance act

On the shore of a calm sea, there will be a lady …

On her left shoulder a Black butterfly tattoo,

Marked to be recognized that she belongs to you …..